HOW DO I LOATHE THEE?
(a parody of How Do I Love Thee?)
by kat santos.


How do I loathe thee? Let me count the ways.
I loathe thee not to small bits and pieces.
It can't even be measured by ounces.
Not even as intense as the sun rays
During the hottest among summer days.
I loathe thee not; still you knock me senseless
So much that I abhor your absences
And scan the crowd for a glimpse of your face.
I loathe thee with so much difficulty
Just as little children attempt to lie
The thought of me loathing you is pretty
Absurd just as pigs are able to fly.
And now I'll stop this crap so thee will see
I'll loathe thee never even if I'd try.

SOME RANDOM POST.

trust me, wala 'tong sense.

I'm still working on How Do I Loathe Thee. does anyone know what rhymes with pieces? I really want my parody to be perfect. HA-HA! so much for my love for literature. I guess I'll try to finish it before summer ends nalang. :)

anyway. so much for stalking, I've uncovered something totally unexpected. nakakairita. hindi ako makapaniwala. ganun pala kaliit ang mundo. I mean, who would've guessed na magkakilala sila? err, bakit? paano? kailan pa? anong meron sa kanila? tas.. ha-ha. okaay, I should stop now.

my mind's blank. :|

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the comfort of making random/nonsensical posts is a.) to let all negativities out -- confusion, hatred, and the like and b.) to distract one's self.

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How do I loathe thee? Let me count the ways.
I loathe thee not to small bits and pieces.
but enough to rip your face like cheese-s. (what the? HAHA!)

GOT IT ALL FIGURED OUT.

my parents would want me to take up accounting in UP. and it's definitely not okay.

bottomline, in order to study my dream course in my dream school I should:

study VERY VERY VERY VERY hard and be a merit scholar. yey for me! :)

really, I don't think that it would be possible, but I'd do anything just so I couldn't study in accounting. so, I guess I'll just have to do my very best and believe in myself. and yeah, I shouldn't forget to pray, & ask help (and have faith). 'cause honestly, you'll never know how powerful faith really is.

hoping I'm not hopeless

BACK OFF.

I'm not dense. or are you just stupid to think otherwise?

I hate your shower of attention. it's creeping me out. it's like you want me to be dependent on you and your gentleman-ly attitude. tss, I hate guys like those. your brags irk me to no end.

so just please, back off. I don't need guys like you.

CRAZY? MAYBE.

I can't get him off my stupid mind!

it's not like I'm thinking about him. he's just always there. it's like... it's like I'm in love with the guy (which is pretty much impossible because I've only met him 3 weeks ago and we haven't even had a conversation or whatever). oh, and yeah. I've even had a dream about him a few hours ago (nung inaattempt kong matulog ulit kasi ang aga ko nagising, HAHA!).

and you do know how much I hate this feeling.

I wish the review would end soon. I do not want to go head over heels with some guy out of reach.

HA! so much for Dopamine, Norepinephrine, and most of all, Serotonin.

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Those three neuro-transmitters are the cause of attraction.

Dopamine is responsible for pleasure and whatever. It is also activated by cocaine and nicotine. Norepinephrine is also known as Adrenalin. It is responsible for getting our hearts racing. Finally, Serotonin is the one that may bring temporary insanity.

ON THE 23rd OF APRIL.

I've gained new guy friends. which is kind of fun, by the way. HAHA!

harhar. we'll also be celebrating my grandfather's death anniversary later on. Fort Bonifacio, here we come!

and to top it all off, we had eye contact. I saw him looking at ME. yey! :D

this is no crushing matter. I'm pretty much obsessed na.

ON NIGHTS LIKE THIS.

I can't help myself.
I wanted to be there for you as a friend.
nothing more, nothing less, I guess.
you were someone special.
you were different.

full moon texts became a tradition.
our tradition.
and after a year of monthly reminders,
I couldn't feel your presence anymore.
ha, so much for all my "let's still be friends" efforts.
I guess things really are different now.
it's like, we're not even friends.

I figured that maybe, he's there to make you happy.
it's not that I'm affected or anything.
I just never thought that
something as silly as this would ruin everything.

it's not like we had something.
or maybe we just didn't realize it?
I don't know. I just don't know.

we never really had something.
but why does it feel like we've lost everything?

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hm, feeling bitter and sad.

it's not like I'm still not over it. i just miss our old friendship/closeness/whatever.

THE GEEKY SIDE.

I have this new (and improved?) scientific calculator. hindi ako sigurado kung 'yun ung model nung nawawala ko. eksaktong pareho lang ung physical appearance nila. magkalapit lang din ung price nila. so I guess magkapareho nga sila ng model nung old one ko.

we took simulated UPCATs last friday. it was fun, I guess. nagkaroon ako ng idea sa mga pinagsasagot ko. pretty much, sineryoso ko talaga. I'm somewhat confident with some of my Math answers. hindi na ako feeling bobo. I guess hard work does pay off. :)

narealize ko na 'yung feeling bobo ko ay 'yung nagmomotivate sa'kin na mag-aral. ang yabang eh noh? pero ewan ko. I really should study trigo someday (soon?)

oh and, I have this new crush (for the sake of having one lang naman). he's a nerd. I so love nerds! pero hindi siya ung fully nerd-ish. he's a cool nerd. :)

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concerning the first paragraph: kasi ung SHARP EL-506W at ung SHARP EL-520W ay identical. although mas maraming functions ung former, hindi mo talaga manonotice ung difference nila. 'yung previous sci cal ko, na binili last year, costs about P1045. at 'yung bago, more or less nasa parehong price range. then nakita ko 'yung price nung EL-520 and mga P700+ ung price.

yeah, I know. I'm such a nerd. ang mahal nun para lang sa isang sci cal, but still ang cool nung sci cal. I guess it's worth it naman din. :)

fully nerd-ish: Kat's term. although hindi siya sure kung talagang may ganyan na term, pangit kasi pakinggan ang fully nerdy. HAHA! kalabuan.

CURIOSITY KILLED THE KAT.

I'm not dead, haha. just in the state of shock? - what the?

still, I do not care. I've stopped caring weeks ago.

and, no. I'm NOT in denial. :)

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still HAPPY because of that little piece of paper.

I wouldn't let you ruin my day.

WHAT LITTLE PIECE OF PAPER?

this little piece of paper! :D

I suck at math and science. tsk, favorites. but hey, diagnostics lang naman 'to (or in my terms, ung MOCKS). pero duh, ang diagnostics ay mostly stock knowledge and luck in guessing. but still. look at my ranks! :)

yabang much?

deal with it kasi kakaiba talaga ang saya dulot nito.

i feel so... so. i love this feeling. :)

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*ranks: out of about 42 students.

HEY, THANKS. :)

God,

Thank you for everything.

The little piece of paper made my day. It lifted my spirits up. I seriously thought that I would be a goner. I have realized how gifted I actually am. But still, remind me to be humble. I hope that after knowing my standings, I wouldn't be too confident.

Oh, and yeah. Thanks for the rainbow. It reminded me not to let blah issues ruin my day. :)

I guess I haven't totally moved on. Please give me strength. Teach me to be open to other things. Enlighten me. When I look at the bright(er) side of things, please be there to shower even the littlest blessings. Those things would be enough to turn my day around.

Thank you so much. :) You know how much effort I have put into this. If it is your will, I will be willing to wait. I know you have other plans for me, plans that I do not know of. I know that these plans would be what's best for me, and that these things are for my happiness.

MAY IDEYA KA BA KUNG...

gaano kasayang magshopping sa Department Store?

sabihin na nating maarte ako, pero dati iniisip ko na ang cheap ng mga damit sa Dept. Stores. ewan ko, iniisip ko kasi na sila ung hindi branded, ung common bilin, ung tipong hindi aabot ng standards ko. iniisip ko dati na kalevel niya ung Surplus stores.

and in my attempt to be unique, bumibili nalang ako sa mga mamahalin na stores. tulad ng Orange Juice at Anti-Fit na hindi naman that reasonable ung prices kasi umaabot ng P500+ ang isang shirt.

anyway, dahil ngayon-ngayon naiiwan ako sa mga malls, wala akong magawa kundi mag-ikot at maghanap/bumili ng magandang damit. and now, allow me to compare Robinsons Galleria Department Store sa SM Megamall Department Store.

basis of comparison: ung floor kung saan nandun ung teens' wear.

Robinsons: meron silang brand called Whatever! na composed of okay na statement t-shirts sa murang prices (discounted: P150). MARAMI rin silang formal dresses.

SM: they've got it all for you! meron silang shirts na magaganda ranging from P300 to P500. meron silang magagandang pambatang jacket na P600; ewan ko nga lang kung may size natin. meron silang magagandang skinny jeans na either P500 or P600, I'm not that sure. meron silang maraming hair accessories na magaganda. maraming board shorts na cool ang design. at, kakarevonate lang, so sosyal siya tingnan ngayon. HAHA!

nakakita rin ako ng shirt sa SM na talagang ako for P300. it's pink and may drawing/doodle ng animal robots. ANG COOL! I love it so. :)

so 'yun. I can't wait na bumalik sa SM Megamall at mag-department store shopping!

NARANASAN MO NA BANG...

lakarin ang streets ng Ortigas?

dahil ang Robinsons Galleria at ang office ni papa ay about mga 6 to 8 blocks ang distance sa isa't isa, nilalakad ko nalang. at kung mga 10:00 ako umaalis, mga 10:20 ako nakakarating sa Robinsons.

anyway, 'yung paborito kong daanan na street ay ang Emerald Ave. ang saya-saya ng feeling kasi pinapaligiran ka ng matataas na building at magagandang restaurants. nakakatuwa kasi ang lalapad ng walkway at walang araw dahil malilim. maidagdag ko pa na umiihip ang hangin sa direksyon na opposite sa'yo. kumbaga, parang hindi siya any other busy street ng Pilipinas.

lalong nakakatuwa kasi naiimagine ko ang sarili ko na nakasuot ng corporate attire tas lumalakad dun papuntang office. HAHA! talagang nangarap eh noh? kumbaga parang sa The Devil Wears Prada, ung scene na naglalakad sila tas ang gaganda ng damit.



kumbaga parang ganyan pero mas maganda ang damit. :))

ewan ko, nakakatuwa lang. naiimagine ko talaga sarili ko.. parang ung pagkaimagine ko sa sarili kong nagddrive ng magandang kotse sa Ateneo/UP. HAHA!

libre naman mangarap, diba diba? :P

ATTEMPTS TO MAKE THIS BLOG "COMMENDABLE":

Attempt#1:

may Response-O-Matic na. :) although hindi makikita ung previous posts/forms, okay na okay na 'to diba?

Attempt#2:

I will try to post entries ('yung may kwenta talaga). errr, ayoko kasi ng makwento eh. kaya every time na magpopost ako ng whatevers, ginagawa kong unusual ung paglalahad. gets?

bottomline: I will try to post entries na may kwenta talaga. hindi ung rants or whatevers. I will prevent this blog na maging katulad nung old blog.

Attempt#3:

unti-unti ko ng pinagkakalat blog ko. as in ung pagpapakalat na ginagamit na status sa YM. HAHA!

Attempt#4:

honestly, wala na yata akong nagawang iba pang attempts pero gusto ko lang na maabot nito ang 5. HAHA!

Attempt#5:

gagawin ko na 'tong permanent blog. as in hindi ko na gagamitin ung Multiply. HAHA! attempt ba un? di yata.

SABI NG HOROSCOPE:

"Accept what you can't change and stop beating your head against the wall. Move on."

translation?

tanggapin mong bobo ka at tigilan mo na 'yang pagrereklamo mo. wag ka ng mainsecure at tama na ang pagmamaliit mo sa sarili. hindi ka naman ganun kabobo. tsaka, karamihan ng tao sa klase ay nag-grade 7. hindi mo kasalanan na walang grade 7 sa eskwelahan nyo, diba? at na nagdiscuss na sila ng unting trigo sa school nila..

ang review ay para matuto. so, matututunan mo rin 'yang mga bagay na di mo alam. magaling ka naman diba? move on. mag-aral ka nang husto.


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conceited much? haha.

EH ANG MOCK ACET, KAMUSTA?

nakakabobo. nakakablanko. nakakapagod. nakakairita. nakakabaliw. nakakalungkot. nakakagalit. nakakapanliit ng tingin sa sarili. nakakaewan. nakakaiyak? nakakabigay ng urge na manghula nalang para matapos na. nakakabigay ng uncomfortable feeling na magyearn na matapos na ung time. nakakastress. nakaka-HUH?! nakakatawa (as in BITTER na tawa) kasi ang nonsensical ng ibang tanong. NAKAKADEPRESS! nakaka-insecure. nakaka... err.

enough said. lalong bumaba tingin ko sa sarili ko. lalo na nung ung natsekan kong paper ay nakakuha ng 90% ng Math ACET. pero kung sa bagay, somehow I'm not surprised.

the sun will come out the day after tomorrow! I can't wait to learn NEW things.

MOCK EXAMS.

they're designed to make certain people feel stupid.

malamang hindi ako exception dun. nakakabobo. para bang pinipiga ang utak kong wala namang maipipiga. and no, I'm not exaggerating.

nakakafrustrate ung mock/diagnostic UPCAT na ginanap kanina. wala akong alam tungkol sa tangents, circles, geometric sequences, Ohm's Law, work, gravity, newtons, blah blah blah. nawala sa utak ko ung formulas ng hypotenuse, right triangles atbp. narealize ko kung gaano kahirap sumagot ng Reading Comprehension questions kapag di mo naman din binasa ang selection para makasave ng time. nabablanko parin ako sa word analogies. note to self: find time to read the dictionary.

okay, ang geeky at narealize ko na wala ring magagawa ang pagrereklamo. kinakailangan kong mag-adjust at magsipag kung gusto kong maging mentally/grade "stable".

so kanina, bago nito at after ko maligo, binuklat ko ang Geometry and Algebra books ko para makaabsorb ng unting information. at oo, alam ko na alam nyong hindi ako ung tipong may pakialam sa grades, pero di ko maexplain eh. iba talaga.

wala akong karapatan maging overconfident or whatever sa mga okasyon tulad nito. kailangan kong mag-aral, kailangan kong maging grade-stable dahil kinabukasan ko ung nakasalalay.

HOW I PLAN TO SPEND THE LAST DAYS BEFORE REVIEW STARTS

magsstart na ang review ko sa Ahead, Robinsons Galleria sa tuesday.

1. tatapusin ko na ung mga binabasa kong libro.
2. mag-eearn ako ng money :)
3. magdamag akong magdDVD
4. hopefully, aaalis ako ng bahay kasama si chekay
5. pinaplano palang: pupunta sa bahay si chekay :)
   
6. matutulog. :))

un lang yata? un lang muna :D