I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING.

so much for denial.
no, I am NOT turning green-eyed. thank you very much.
I'm just bothered by their chummy familiarity that it feels as if I can barely contain my insecurities.

you have no idea how it feels -- containing insecurities. not only does it bring you pain, depression, chaos, confusion and other negative whatnot. it also deprives you of this thing called sleep even if you are in great need of it.

LA-LA-LA! Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you.